There Is A Light In Me

There is a light in me,

Now buried,

That was once so bright,

It made even the darkest of colors

Look like the first dew of spring

In bright sunlight.

Crafted with the finest

Strokes of honesty and bravery…

The light sparkling so bright

Held onto others with naive optimism;

Believing that the light in others was also

Made of the very same qualities.

But, oh! The felony of nature:

That what we desire is not necessarily

That which we need.

And thus, the light of others,

Overshadowed the light in me.

Making it look like the dullest

Of monsoon skies that could ever be.

The light of others painfully

Drained out the light in me,

And in this process

I forgot that,

There is a light in me

That was once so bright…

It made even the darkest of colors

Look like the first dew of spring

In bright sunlight.

 

Copyright, Sevenstarhalo 2016.

Take Some Liberties

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The Double Decker Living Root Bridge

They call it the Living Root Bridge because it never stops growing. With time, it keeps getting stronger with firm roots digging deeper into Earth. It is over 500 years old and you have to trek some 3,500 steps , cross a village, eat at a shack which has local chips and coca cola (besides lemon juice and pure honey) for sale just to reach this bridge. The water is blue, and I saw the sun set and the stars take over. Sitting on the edge of this huge rock, beside the blue water , it dawned upon me how very liberating travelling can be. I wish I could travel all my life, because with travelling you just keep moving forward – there is no looking back, you know?

This was my first trip with the money I had been saving for a while now, and I wish I could explore the places nearby.

This was my first step to actually living my dream. I actually went trekking, did the thing I have always loved and wanted to do.

I was on my own, ready to take on anything that came my way. I felt that way after a very long time. I actually felt that.

 As long as the tree they are formed from remains healthy, they naturally self-renew and self-strengthen as their component roots grow thicker.

Live Inspired.

You will one day experience joy that matches this pain. You will cry euphoric tears at the Beach Boys, you will stare down at a baby’s face as she lies asleep in your lap, you will make great friends, you will eat delicious foods you haven’t tried yet, you will be able to look at a view from a high place and not assess the likelihood of dying from falling. There are books you haven’t read yet that will enrich you, films you will watch while eating extra-large buckets of popcorn, and you will dance and laugh and have sex and go for runs by the river and have late-night conversations and laugh until it hurts. Life is waiting for you. You might be stuck here for a while, but the world isn’t going anywhere. Hang on in there if you can. Life is always worth it.

My One Wish

I wait for life to get better, because you told me so.

I watch them with their masks on. Each mask different from the other – cynicism,dishonesty, excessive criticism, hypocrisy, pretence and cheap praise. I recognise when they lie or want to manipulate. I watch quietly as friends who I once trusted, turn into foes. I tolerate their behaviour and keep moving forward.

 I keep moving, because you told me so.

For the very same reason, I avoid people with rigid and inflexible personalities. I witness something violent, but feel helpless. I hate conflict and comparisons. As I keep moving forward, certain that you are hiding just round the corner, I get kicked back with full force. I brush off the dust, because I recall that you warned me about this. I am in terrible pain, but I believe you with all my faith. Loyalty, stronger than blood.

I keep moving forward because you told me so.

You tell me that people are capable of doing what they dream of. But my life hardly seems to improve, get better. I am left with nothing but my dreams. They have been with me, from the beginning of me. I feel like a prisoner of my personal history. I drink down my sorrows and let it go. My life is going to end before it even starts.

And, now you tell me. After all these years. Now you tell me, I don’t have to?

#Epiphany.

Copyright, Sevenstarhalo 2016